I took yet another week off. Not because my life is so awesome and I just don't have the time...actually it's quite the opposite.
SWEET BABY JESUS THESE MENZ ARE FIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIOOOOOOOOOOOONE!!!
complain about calls I don't receive,
and continue to make my booty jump in the mirror.
**the exercises are working by the way ;)**
But it gets old and really who cares. It's like watching a rerun over and over again!
So as you all can see I'm in a place. Not a bad place, just a place. Almost like a crossroads. I see where I was and I'm definitely not trying to go back there, but I don't see where I'm going. I guess this is my road less traveled. So I got full grown weeds and bushes and trees n shit to fight through. Hope I don't fall in a ditch or twist an ankle trying to be strong and what not.
Does every man deserve a chance just because he is a 'good guy'? I'm changing my attraction radar and opening myself to other types of men that I may of missed because I was chasing the other guy that really didn't want me, but I told myself that he did, but in truth he just liked how I walked or how my lips moved when I talked....oh sorry got off the subby. But really. When can I stop scribbling off things on my ideal man?
And before anyone starts the prayer circle, let's establish that God-fearing is already in the equation. But that's not where options should stop. Just because he love the Lord doesn't mean he's not a snake in the grass. Sorry holy rollers, my momma didn't raise a fool in Jesus, she raised a grown woman in Jesus and you can't quote me a scripture and call me Mary!
Moving forward. I enjoy attention...but there is a thing as too much! I don't need a guy that is thirstier than me for no good reason. Like he's aggressively pursuing me and I'm mildly responding to his advances. There needs to be a balance. Fellas you can put on your track shoes to get your chase on, but just make sure you don't pass her in the process.
Finally...well not finally but all I'm saying on this entry. What about physical attraction? Should that be something that is overlooked once you are 30+ and single as the day is long? Should I just wish for really, really, really dark movie theatres, restaurants, and bedrooms? What about personality and character? Should I just throw those ideals in the ocean of youmissedtheboat.com just because he love Jesus and his momma? I'm not even going to get on kids! I'll save that for an entire entry!
All I know is I want to be happy being who I am and I want to feel the same way about someone else! I want him to love every part of me and not try and make me into what he thinks I should be because my dreams don't match his reality. It's time to make my dreams a reality. Not for him....but for me! That's going to be my new boo!
Until next time folks.
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