Okay so it’s been a few weeks. My how time flies when you are on the
grind. I swear the 4th of
July was last week. But I went to sleep
and woke up and it’s the wee hours of the 29th. I decided to take a break from my rigorous
schedule to take a deep breath, have a glass of Cab, and rock out to Marsha
Ambrosia. Now I can only take this
sister in doses so I guess this is her time to shine with me!!! But I think it’s her lil boy toy on this
album that really got me listening. He
pops in just when I’m about to cut her yodolin’ ass off!!! Anyhoo…..enough about that. So I’ve been thinking about where I want to
go with this blog tonight. I’m attempting
to pull from my current experience but I was interrupted from my blogging by an interesting conversation with a very intriguing gentleman. And I emphasize GENTLEMAN.
I’m going to let this guy….who is currently laying in my
bed (no sex in the champagne room), drinking a beer and telling me that he
knows women better than I think he does.
So I’m typing via him talking.
And he is probing the question….WHAT IS SEX????
Him: Sex makes you feel good….it can also make you feel
bad. Even if it’s great.
Me: This nigga is
drunk!!!!
Him: I’ve seen it all, done it all, and heard it all…from
the “oooh I shouldn’t be doing this”…to the, “Is this all you want from me?” To
the, “This is the best sex I’ve ever had.”…I wish I knew. I swear I feel like I love you, but when the
liquor wears off, I feel different.
Me: Well ain’t that a
bitch!
Him: But I think a
part of me wants to love you. But there’s
an even bigger part that wants attention.
Me: oooooooooooh
shit!!!!
Him: And I think that’s
where the fellow man and I have failed.
Everybody wants to be the man, but not everybody wants to be A MAN. I truly believe that my daughters have
changed me. I see them and I see……..beauty. But I look at my past and I see pain….NOW!!!!
I’m getting too old for this shit.
Me: He says as he chugs down a beer.
Him: I just want someone who loves me, my daughters, and
supports my dreams. But I’m fucking
petrified that karma will come back for me.
With that being said, when things go good I push her away. At this age (26) I don’t think I can afford
heartbreak. Though it’s ironic because I’ve
caused a lot.
In my head I’ve created the perfect woman. She’s beautiful, fashionable, God-fearing,
nurturing, ambitious, loyal, but most of all she’s a FREAK!!!....
Me: Oh shit I’m
hollin!!! Didn’t see that one coming.
Him: I pray that one day I find her or maybe she’ll find
me. I truly am tired of living like this…..
I will leave you with this, if ALL I do is make you cum…..then
why would you stay? That’s all I do is
make you cum….I don’t feed you mentally, I don’t even take out the trash, I don’t
take care of your kids…all I do is make you cum. Sex is
a skill. It can be improved, anyone can
get better at it the more they do it. That’s
all that it is. Women think it’s all about sex. I don’t even think women…PEOPLE think it’s
all about sex. But sex is always and
always will be just a PLUS!
THIS IS FROM A MAN’S PERSPECTIVE!
How many times have we, women, heard this kind of
honesty/truth/realness from a man, regardless of age, and we refuse it as
gospel? Or we claim that we hear him
(which we probably do), but we don’t LISTEN, or even change our way of thinking
or how we act? It’s almost like we are
just waiting for him to finish so that we can tell him how wrong he is or tell
him what a man really is, or how a man really thinks? I know that I myself have been guilty of
this.
I think in all that both men and women want the same things
and yet fear the same things. Leave a
comment and tell me what you think about his perspective.
Until next time.
